Dance

Epilogue

2010-05-07T23:35:00.000-07:00

Life's kinematic,
Laws that dictates constant motion but an ever increasing change in perspective,
Always acted upon resulting forces of other lives and other thoughts.

2009-10-23T05:50:00.000-07:00

RELINK LOLS

i've decided to move on to the green screen.

http://ifeelandthink.blogspot.com/

2009-10-15T05:08:00.001-07:00

i've got alot to talk about my views on studying.

and all the thoughts crop up in my mind.

all exam related matters.

posts and future posts on my alt blog.

"student's lament"

2009-10-14T06:56:00.001-07:00

I AM NEIL BRIAN.

back from eoy exams :D

been doing crap.
watching some DJ hero videos.
hearing some techno.
raving under negative lights.
playing with the guys.
loving my life.

2009-09-27T05:02:00.000-07:00

i've yet to do hmwk.
i won't be posting for this week i guess.
so, i post my final alt. post tonight.
my final post, for now...

2009-09-24T04:01:00.000-07:00

today was...ok...i guess?
art. prep work kinda simple.
english oral. reading, ok. conversation, quite nervous.
some people could see i was shivering. lol.
nvm, i elaborate like hell, though i kinda screw up huh?
28 weeks later, horror???
ya, duh. zombies - horror doesn't always mean ghosts.
after sch.
went to eat mutton rice with the guys. spicy.
went kelvin house with them to see him cook.
gunz and vids.
then went home wif tj.
bla bla bla.
that's all.
~

know why i post about life bla bla bla?
cos i'm updating my alt. blog too.

2009-09-20T07:11:00.000-07:00

well, we've enough of house.
anyway. i just read that house music is the music that makes the 'house' dance. :P
now onto...
~
PART 3: TECHNO, CLASSIC TECHNO

Fix - Flash (1992)

this part is shorter i must say.

anyway. like the name says.
techno has it classic roots.
in the 80's and 90's.
in good ol' detroit there grew early Techno.
where all the great masters played their disks
that laid the base for future sub-genres.

if you listen to Fix - Flash.
it's repetitive, oh yea.
the way i listen to it, succumb to that rhythm that loops all over again.
let loose and feel high.
i assure you'll feel the song flow within and you wouldn't really care how long you've been listening.
:P

go to http://www.youtube.com/user/statenhal to listen to Classic Electronic Music.

i'm a true electronic music lover, it's in my blood eh?
~

anyway.
visit my alt. blog and leave a tag yea?

2009-09-19T03:56:00.000-07:00

my alternative blog.
@
http://ifeelandthink.blogspot.com/

2009-09-18T21:52:00.000-07:00

i feel lonely.
there isn't someone to really look forward and for to everyday.
there isn't a spark in my life.

i feel lonely.
not because people made me lonely.
but because i just feel like it.

well, it is good enough i have friends.

~
but this loneliness is a yearn to meet a special someone.

someone who sees life and not just describe; but also explains and understands it.
and is filled with hope as it is with happiness; but not blinded by the joy but also aware of the sad.
angered but understanding; feeling but thinking.

oh god, thats the impossible.
i can never expect so much...

2009-09-18T04:25:00.000-07:00

i stumbled upon this verse in the bible.

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrong. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres."

- 1 Corinthians 13:4-7

2009-09-18T03:54:00.000-07:00

school was ok...and played card game like...till it was confiscated D:
sorry tj.

anyway, House music has mostly long tracks. ranging from 2mins to 10mins.
~

PART 2: HOUSE, CLUB-HOUSE

Justice - Phantom Pt 1 & Pt 2
(No vocals)

Justice - DVNO

Justice - DANCE

This is Club-House.
not clubhouse, a house for some sort of club -.-
Club-House :D

basically, it's very simple.
Club-House is the genre of House music more oriented for clubbing. :P

though i gotto say.
it's one of the most hardest music to like.
noone actually liked all the Club-House music i have in my mp4.

Basically you listen to club-house like you wanna Jump. or something.
dammit man, i don't know how to put it that way.
i just feel like i wanna Bounce when i hear Club-house.

some Club-House tracks are from Justice.
another french duo.
de French own you peeps. :P

DA ELECTRONIC DANCE MUSIC POST

2009-09-17T03:16:00.000-07:00

brief info on what i did recently.

got our art together with tj, kel and cs. played some card game at sch. kelvin piece un-sketched. ate at ah mei cafe - prata. chong soon's piece was broken. my peice proke. went home. took rest. did math. was listening to some heartgold/soulsilver. and now i'm gonna blog.
~

so, i'm gonna blog about Electronic Music.

Electronic Music is the overall genre of all music that makes us high, wanna dance, wanna trip, and wanna love or wanna hate.
and some Electronic Music makes you soooo trippy, soooo high, you don't need any drugs if you.
Electronic Music is totally clean. You won't get arrested. lol.

under Electronic Music there are several genres.
HOUSE, TRANCE, TECHNO, BREAKBEAT, JUNGLE, HARDCORE, DOWNTEMPO
and by the way.
Electronica is not a genre. it's some sh*t term critics call the type of music famous Electronic artists/bands make. anyone who says Electronica's a genre should be shot.

so, it's not like i'm gonna talk about every genre there is. and by the way. THERE ARE FRICKIN SUBGENRES TOO! XD.
instead, i'm gonna talk about the common type of genres me and my friends (i think) individually hear.
~
PART 1: HOUSE, FRENCH HOUSE

Daft Punk - Harder Better Faster Stronger
(Genre - House
Subgenre - French House)

Daft Punk - Da Funk
(Genre - House
Subgenre - French House)

Thomas Bangalter - Colossus
(Genre - House
Subgenre - French House)

This is House, to be more exact, French House.
House in overall is a soulful genre that follows the 4/4 beat tempo.
It changes every 30bpm (beats per minute) to 150 bpm.

So, to any average listener: House would sound like some kind of repetitive music that you would waste time on. (hear Colossus)
To a real listener: House would be the music that blasts those awesome tunes and repeat and repeat till you love it. You're supposed to enjoy it. :D

however, in this 21st centery.
House has been riddled with some voices and lyrics too. (hear Harder Better Faster Stronger)
though some House still keeps to its roots.

French House is DOMINATED by Daft Punk. that's the french duo. no wonder i love the french. :P

(part 2 of the series coming up)

2009-09-16T04:50:00.000-07:00

i'm so elated. blogger's back to normal.
on the laptop, that is ._.

~
TJ made a new way to style your blog posts.

"Well, i think a new blogger style should be invented, that is why, i started this blog.i wanted to try out something really awesome and new. i would say that this blog is not all about me. it's about all of us."

though i wouldn't say that his new idea would be revolutionary.
:P

anw.
my style of blogging is like any other usual style.
just talk and talk and talk about life.

i mean,
look at i.e dickson's blog. (soz man)
he recently made a post purely about their day.
oh hold, not day.
-- days.
omg, i don't bother reading soz.
(no offence dickson, just some reference.)

anyway, we all add in some emo thought shit in our blog posts too.
like
"why is life..."
"i'm so unhappy..."

i'm kinda different i guess.
*cough, biased to self, cough*
i sometimes answer myself.

anw.
i'm so sad...
i'm so lonely in the blogosphere.
cos i don't reply tags.
cos i don't really have much blog frens.
cos noone tag me.

D:

*make that small sad smiley be an awesome face.
for every tag you make.
every awesome gets better.

oh god, wth?
did i just made a pathetic attempt in promoting my blog?
bleh.

oh well, off I do english hmwk

2009-09-15T01:15:00.000-07:00

to be or not be, that is the question.
for me to put Hypnotised - Arka Teks
as my blog song.

it's hypnotising.
yet fun to rave to.
benny benassi should techno remix it.
:P

2009-09-12T17:37:00.000-07:00

holidays have ended. this wasn't even one.
~
~
spent day playing nerf.
spent days doing work.
spent day doing chores.
spent days going school.
spent days and days playing com and listening to music.
~
~
anw.
my parents went to the Comex IT Sale at suntec.
and they bought a laptop!
~
~
though i kinda screwed it up for the 1st few days :P
i made the firewall block Internet Explorer
D:
system restore.
:D
Norman antivirus got problem.
Uninstalled.
ERROR: NSF no resource found
D:
deleted some crap.
back to normal.
:D
installed AVG.
~
~
so, i spent pretty much time on the lappy.
but it can play Combat Arms! SMOOTHLY!
~
~
well, i'm gonna go church now.

2009-09-04T03:50:00.000-07:00

the whole point of life is to enjoy life.

because the world's just awesome.

and it's just even better if we make others' life awesome.

to enjoy life; to truly be convinced that you've enjoyed it.

is when you had so much.

you think death is actually worth it.

you think you've done everything life's worth.

that's my dream.

i won't wait;

if i have the chance,

i'll make it.

everything's awesome. look at it that way. if some thing's are not, help make it. don't wait.

2009-09-03T06:37:00.000-07:00

ok, ptm's tmrw.

anw, i finally know how to draw
the AWESOME smiley.
(see my facebook profile pic, blogger sucks, no upload wth ... that's not awesome)

and because i drew it,
that's awesome people.
we don't need our faces to show what's awesome.

life's awesome.
i want to enjoy life till i'm sick of it till dying seems worth already.

anw.
my organiser.
is outta pages.
i mean, i took a half year to mess up my prev book.
but now.
my organiser is over in a term.

a few pages left only available for organiser stuff.
no philosophical mumbo-jumbo that made my organiser have value.

hm.
k, nites people.

FYI: i don't reply tags, that's just, not awesome.
i don't tag people, so, why should you too?
lol crap, then my tagboard's for show.

2009-09-02T03:15:00.000-07:00

ooh wow, Streaming EOY in a months time.
woohoo.....
not.

i must say, i've never experience a year pass by so fast before.
i mean, 365 days.
and more than a half of it...
gone!

and now there's this exam.

god.
my History.

i betcha, if i ask miss ong to remark my SEQs and SBQs that mr lee marked.
she'll show the truth.

i think...

anw.

i feel like making nerf a cca.
lol.

k, off.

2009-08-29T06:39:00.000-07:00

watched Where Got Ghost with my pals today at causeway cathay.

crap lol, we took quite too close to the screen.

but lol too at the movie.

scary but funny!

got myself into some of the Mr Men Little Miss craze.

zzz.

1 Mr. Small

2 Little Miss Sunshines

1 Mr Nosey.

haha, mr small, what irony.

kinda weird

reflected on my past actions for the term.

a philosphers rule;

Always simplify and summarise.

Never make something simple into some complex drama tale.

the two topics i've been pondering about is.

about love and

about guilt and the word 'sorry'

i broke that rule. but hopefully not anymore.

sigh...

2009-08-28T04:41:00.000-07:00

took a long way back home.

i'm really dull and bored.

seeing the world fail in my eyes.

i'm Dissapoint, i am the emotion.

i get dangerous when i'm dull.

when not even a human life

is an act of success,

not even worth existence seeing.

sigh,

cheer up boy,

there's a streaming exam ahead for you...

2009-08-27T03:57:00.001-07:00

hm, studies...
that's on my mind for now...

2009-08-25T03:28:00.000-07:00

"never hold on too long. or

you'll find yourself troubled with a mind filled with memory than it is with hope."

2009-08-23T05:35:00.000-07:00

http://www.waytotruelove.blogspot.com/

very true principles of love.
surprising because i've found out i broke some of them... :(

2009-08-23T02:39:00.001-07:00

blogger is as bugged as i am sick.
throat infection, mc down 1 week.

but i'm feeling kinda better now.
taking my chances on tues if i feel fine.
if not, oh well.

2009-08-21T20:20:00.000-07:00

lol, i found this.

2009-08-21T04:55:00.000-07:00

the last day of the week is one of the best days.

this last day of this week is one of the better days.

oh c'mon.

other than some hiccups in math.

THREE FREE PERIODS!

omg, no homec.

for reg 1-20 , that is.

and the guys did some "man to man" discusion for the first period.

only when the 2nd period struck then we had to do our science worksheets.

ok.

so, today was cca.

did some presentation

on How to Sing The National Anthem

together with weeseng, quanen, and piexian.

then pt.

o.o

we ran and ran.

so fun!

clap clap! jia yous.

god, sec2s brought boots for nothing.

oh well.

then blah blah.

hey! i finally saved $6 this week.

i'm gonna treat myself mac this sun. :P

so anyway.

consider yourself lucky.

i've been told that you have to do the remaining sums we did for chap 16.

the fews sums we did and handed in are blue file work.

the remaining sums for homework is Pink file.

due on tue

There's utterly no point being left behind sad.

There's every reason to go on and forth happy :D

2009-08-19T03:27:00.000-07:00

school was eventful,

much,

or so i think

much tearful, not me.

just much tearful...

after school,

go charades.

oh wtf, i'm stuck with that sumit.

only 2 of us in the team and we...

left off!

woohoo.

though i must say,

sumit doesn't really know what the class interests are in hand.

and just because some members don't wanna go competition

doesn't mean they are doing something horribly bad or anything...

i just told the teacher 'they couldn't make it'

he wanted to say the complete truth.

ugh.

c'mon lah, i also feel lazy.

i could have already skpped.

what's the problem.

if we or they don't wanna go,

it's our choice.

oh well.

it's just a competition i guess.

well, gone back home.

plenty of hmwk to do.

i guess..

i forgive you, we all need to be happy. please, and Thank you.

2009-08-17T02:53:00.000-07:00

and all it took was to look into my heart once more.

and then i truly realised,

that the simplest of friendship was all that i needed to be content...

2009-08-16T02:32:00.000-07:00

today.

church was usual.

lunch was usual, grilled dory fish.

library was usual.

saw chong soon.

and i was bored, and so was he.

and i borrowed book, and so did he.

bleh.

ok, then i walked around northpoint.

listen to techno...

then saw lynelle and her friend.

then walk walk somemore.

then want go home to the bus stop.

but it was very very hot outside northpoint.

so i decided to go interchange,

then take 811,

bused home.

well before home,

bought some decent green apple milk tea.

then, that's all i guess.

2009-08-15T23:38:00.000-07:00

~excerpts~

3:24 AM - Tuesday, June 23, 2009

you asked me to forget.
i've completely forgotten my care for you.

2:01 AM - Saturday, June 6, 2009

"And here I am fighting, fighting
Yes I'm fighting not to cry
and that's another reason why
I ought to hate you like I do"

~Franz Ferdinand - You're the Reason I'm Leaving

2009-08-15T04:43:00.000-07:00

i coined a term

"Emotional Sucide"

during chinese class last thursday.

because i was wondering,

if emotional pain was worse than physical pain,

and if suicide was worse than pain.

then emotional suicide

is worse than

than phyical suicide.

it's when all your emotions jump off some sort of cliff.

it's very very horrible i guess.

random, much.

i was just wondering...

2009-08-14T20:19:00.000-07:00

Sorry

i really think i lost.

i mean, lost for real.

but i guess,

other people are winners too.

and i'm glad for them.

they're right.

i've made too many mistakes,

and i've got to learn.

i'll never understand some things in life.

but that's ok. because

the point of life is to learn.

i really should shuttup like i know it all.

because i don't, and that's reality.

Thanks to all the people who taught me along my life.

Sorry to all the people who i never really helped them enjoy life.

and i'm truly sorry and thankful.

i feel so guilty, and i plead i am.

2009-08-14T07:00:00.000-07:00

I'm in Indifference so Innocuous

and if i'm ever gonna lose;

if i'm never triumphant.

i don't care that people may have won.

because they haven't made me feel lost yet.

no one ever will.

showing nothing in response is so great.

it's so harmless.

2009-08-13T07:21:00.000-07:00

none of the world fking gets it huh?

that i hate the word sorry.

sorry is meaningless.

meaningless!

null; void; stupid.

it's an overused word.

i don't want to hear anyone's crap trying to say,

it's already enough.

'sometimes it's the only word you'll need'

'sorry means sorry'

blah blah blah....

bleh ><

sorry doesn't mean sorry if you're gonna hurt again.

and i am.

i feel like i want to.

i don't care whether people think my meaning of sorry if fked up.

ಠ_ಠ

shuttup.

hold on,

all of you are idiots right?

right right?

oh god, no one understands...

noooo ooone.

2009-08-13T02:11:00.000-07:00

i don't care.

i don't give a damn.

i'm not going to say anything that helps.

i never say anything that helps.

i want to laugh.

i want to snarl and hiss in rage.

oh, i wish i could kill right now.

i wish i could just jump of a cliff.

i'll walk down the field and sleep by the oak tree.

i'll drift down the river.

i'll be happy!

haha!

oh well..

i'm starting to laugh now.

this is a joke.

2009-08-11T03:40:00.000-07:00

UPDATE: + FRENCH SONG, wooh.

yes, ok.

google chrome did a decent work of putting the toolbar up.

ok, so.

days has passed.

fighting over orginisers.

i mean, i'm not pissed that people are reading my organisers.

i'm utterly pissed because they have to steal just to get it?

wtf?

why?

where the hell did all the "excuse me, lend me your organiser" go off to?

anyway,

oh the irony.

chip's so understanding,

yet so sneaky and unexpected.

bleh ><

ever since the organiser incident.

i don't think it'll ever be a diary, lol.

just as long as i write stories.

ok.

gotto revise, wth, tests...

ooh, french song from Ratatouille.

2009-08-11T03:38:00.001-07:00

wait hold on...
where's my toolbars...

2009-08-09T05:45:00.000-07:00

i'm not sick, that's quite surprising...

ok, school ndp was ok.
parade was...um, rehearsal-standard.
or maybe rehearsal was already parade-standard!
xD

talentime was ok.
singing was mediocre.
but but!
that weida yoyo guy did it!

wooh.
either he starts a new trend of yoyos.
or he'll have more gay fans screaming
"i love you weida!"
"marry me!"

lol.

ok

tv's ndp was. also.
uninteresting?
wow. to me that is...

i nid to do hmwk.

anyway.

i like my friends.
we should be drinking buddies.
go to pub then talk and talk.

it's funny how we can change topics so easily.
like for example.
i start talking about french girls and then we're talking about pokemon.

O.o
xD

ok.
must do chinese formal letter writing.
now what horror is that?
new format???
oh god...

~

changed my blog songs.
hear it, and let it blast into your ears!

2009-08-06T06:38:00.000-07:00

i should either be a philosopher or a physiologist.

provided i never get to be a game designer.

so, here's an excerpt from my organiser.

chong soon, that friend of mine, understood part of everything.

bleh ><

it would be polite if anyone would credit me.

"Reminiscence; nostalgia, is all so soothing. Yet so disgusting somehow. It's like coming out from water and you're all wet, but you want to come back to the cool of the water. However, I know I should never overdo it. Like you could down in the water anytime and die.

I guess this is an exception. I'm dry now...

~~~

Here's a story:

There's this boy who jumped off a cliff, away from what he wanted to be away from.

Somehow, something in him made him grab on and hold back.

Something? Perhaps a slight force of attachment... nevertheless.

And so, there was the poor boy, holding on to cliff side. Holding on, knowing that his hands are aching; that his fingers are pain and trembling.

However, the boy wasn't much of a poor soul.

He wouldn't die falling, he had life down on the green fields below him.

He held on not because he was going to die falling.

He held on because he still wanted to see,

he wanted to see what he had originally left.

But he was hanging on a cliff side.

The boy had to pull himself up with his aching hands and fingers.

And then he pulled himself up in agony.

Pulling together all the strength he had elft.

And when he inched a peek,

There was nothing; bare; desert.

Everything left when he jumped;

He left everything behind and

Everything was not worth his anymore.

He was shocked; dumbfounded; aghast.

and he used up all his strength and fell.

Confused; pained; sad.

He fell to the fields.

Picked himself up again.

He looked back up at the cliff wall.

But

He didn't care anymore.

He did not give a damn

He walked off to the river which had an oak tree at the bend..."

2009-08-06T05:01:00.000-07:00

pretty much a good day.
organiser crap.
the story on the boy.
Chong soon reliability sbq.
lols.

well, tmrw's NDP
:D
2nd parade this year.
too bad for the 3rd, GOH's cancelled :(

must polish my boots...

and must burn the music to disc!

2009-08-05T06:32:00.000-07:00

here's a touching story about a boy who jumped off a cliff.
and you're not reading it yet. :D

2009-08-03T06:29:00.000-07:00

one day, blogger was all so fine.
today, blogger screwed up all over again.
and tomorrow blogger who know's what would happen.
~

the whole post is about?
Time.
i've been fascinated by it starting of this month.
not really, quite pissed off.

anyway, here's my point of view
~

Tom looked up at the sky seeing the sun rise and set,
he was bored and called it Day.
Then the moon rose and set,
he was still bored and called it Night.

For some stupid reason,
Tom said a period of Day and Night together,
would be called Day.
Only God knows why he thought of that,
Why call it Day, instead of Night?
Or think of a completely new name instead.

All I know,
that was just the start of stupid things.
More stupid things happened,
and Tom broke 3 fingers.

And Tom looked up at the sky for a couple more Days and Nights.
He counted with 7 fingers.
And decided to call 7 sets of Days, or Days and Nights, a Week.
And a couple 4 Weeks or so, a Month.
And 12 Months, a Year.

Dear Tom had wasted a year doing all that.
Poor Tom.

But no matter how poor Tom was,
he was still bored.

And Tom wondered.

"The sun just left, what do I call it?"
"The moon left too, what do I call?"
He called it Past.

"I want to see the sun and moon again."
He called it Future.

And he was bored.
And what he had now was a decent gift.
He called it Present.

And Tom wanted to return to the Past.
But he didn't know how.

He thought he knew in the Future.
And wanted to travel there.

And he took the normal way to the Future.
Simply by living at the pace of Time itself.

And in the Future he died.

And did he return to the Past?
Maybe, he's History.

2009-07-31T20:25:00.000-07:00

woohoo.
i'm here happier than ever.
and a new month opens up for me and everyone.

upcoming events are ndp
my mum's birthday,
teachers day,
um...
more tests?

and yes!
blogger's back to normal.
~

yesterday was breezy.
math lesson was ok,
chinese lesson was ok.
IT was ok.

reccess ate hokkien mee with prawn.

homec, heng...
i passed.
no more lazy guy,
i wanna ace my physics in science.
i wanna ace my vitamins :D

cca.

fall in, zahidah i/c

reviewed cpr, unconscious and concious choking.
then went off to wet weather rehearsal.
put aside, cos i'm not in contingent, only in performance.
then sit there in one corner, look look.
wet weather looks interesting.

then in the end.
i wasn't needed, because that day's rehearsal didn't include perfomance.

oh well.
went off to the classroom.
see the cpr dummy.
then went out.
see sec ones do footdrill,
sec 2's join in.
but i don't wanna be extra, cos i wearing uniform.

so, i just adviced their hentah khaki.
to land on toes,
not the heel like ncc style.

then went back.
did dummy cpr.
turned out i wasn't so rusty.
:D

wasted cash today.
$2 ice mountain water bottle
$2 reccess
$2 lunch
$2 cca fund
$1.50 koto badge

sigh...

k.

2009-07-30T05:58:00.000-07:00

some stuff i want to talk about.

first, it's about techno.
it's like a drug,
you either love it or just vomit it :P
and whatever man,
if techno sucks ass.
tell that to other techno listener,
clubbers will bludgeon ya with our bottles of whisky and vodka.
djs will splice ya with their vinyls.
~

second, it's about school life.
pretty much rocky but all so entertaining sometimes.
like this recent day,
mr soo was like
"pinkpinkpinkpinkpink...."
just to tell me that exercise 9.3 belonged to pink file.

and kelvin and chongsoon
were put as new math reps.
lol
i think we should include girls.
:P

chongsoon knows too much.
too much of a one sided story :P
~

third, it's about my organiser.
some bloody crap in pencil.
some sense in pen.

and chongsoon (again)
took it.
i mean, how many friggin times has he taken my stuff???
~

fourth, it's about the com
facebook bots,
crush bot, gay bot, sex bot. o.O
MAFIA WARS.
and...
maple.
lvl 45.
can't wait to use all the lvl 50 eq...

i feel like buying @cash! ><
~

NDP +parade coming soon.
can't wait,
don't cry me a river,
don't rain on my parade.

2009-07-27T02:18:00.001-07:00

bye bye people, farewell world. nice knowing all of you... (:

2009-07-25T05:19:00.000-07:00

ok, blogger's been acting pretty weird lately.
but finally got a decent posting webpage to type into.

the toolbar's missing and i'm not sure i can't get into html mode,
or am i in it?

went to macdonald's for homework and then kelvin's house.
wooh, done both math and chi.

that's nice enough.
~

"You need to know what you've lost.
You can't just get it back,
You have to find it."

2009-07-17T21:14:00.000-07:00

there's this irritating itch in my nose.
maybe cos of the oil there.
*scratch*
today, gonna do homec and history.
maybe eng.
english's too easy lah.
...
*scratch*
...
anyway,
it's my brother's birthday today.
Happy Birthday Nicky!
the house's full of balloons :P
...
gonna watch harry potter this afternoon.
bye!

2009-07-17T07:58:00.000-07:00

a person's life is full of boring details.
most of school life is part of those boring details.
i don't think i really have to blog about that.

i think i've forgotten how it felt to cry.
that i know that i've held on to guilt so long.
i want to let it all go.
i'll never understand the sadness felt by crying.
but i truly need it.
i haven't had it for long...

2009-07-16T02:28:00.000-07:00

ok.

today, i spent part of the morning listening to techno.
yes, again ._.

then i went out of the house to school.
took the bus.
and i brought my mp4 to school.
so i listened to more techno in the bus ._.

reached school.
and went to the bookshop to buy chinese fullscap
and e dictionary.
they sold neither ._.

went to class and the people were already listening
to music.
i showed tj and cs some techno.
i mean, the pure techno.
and tj commented
that it just sounded like random beats and some voices ._.

miss lee returned to sch for honouring.
sadly, the website to show live broadcast sucked.
ok, not sucked.
the internet connection sucked.
so what if the school revamped all the computer.
please.
the internet speed's the same as ever.
but i shouldn't much care, should i?
it's not like i'm gonna use the sch internet.

went to lit.
ok.
understood the balcony scene and inch better.

art
was ceremics.
Slab work.
bang bang on table.

recess
om nom nom 'O'

e math
switched places with hui ying.
cos i'm a lefty.
she's a righty.
and our hands langah to each other sometime ><

mother tongue
essay.
300 words.
Wo Zhang Da Le ._.

hist
learnt a new
seemingly better method
for reliabilty sbq.
not suprising some people didn't know what merger.

english
facts and opinions.
somehow i've realised the
nerd and filipino maid jokes
were gone already.
but some people
got a bit pissed at jokes at them.
had to throw a spoon at me you know...
maybe too pissed.
guess i should shuddup some time and then.
well, miss yong did shuddup us,
but only briefly.

lesson ended.
stayed back.
chi essay down with 200 words left.
cs and kel had to leave me behind.
soon, i was left with wee seng.

and i managed to finish my essay.
wee seng helped me hand in.
what a good guy...

went to np and ate fresh at subway.
didn't go there for a long time.
so i forgot the ordering procedure.
felt long to finish eating the sandwich, om nom nom.
and 2 cookies, munch munch crunch

went to bus stop.
bused home.

looked at my organiser.
next week not gonna be as pleasant as this week.
test galore on next wednesday, Hist, Geo and Sci.
galore not ._.

tmrw is rehearsal.
no mood to get my boots polish-y polished.
and i'm not gonna bring my uniform in the morning.
i'll just go back home and take it.
since fall in at 1530, 3 30pm.
and school ends at 12 10.

oh well.
off i go.
math basic practise to do.

2009-07-15T05:57:00.000-07:00

long time no post.
partly because i've been playing maple lately.
because i've quite lost the blogging mood.
heh.
~

anyway.
today was a good day. just good.
i mean....just simply good

not perfect.
because perfect is a day when...(excuse me while i take your time)

the sun shines warm and light.
i drive down the French countryside in a car,
in a road amidst the great vineyards.
riding from Paris to Cannes.
in the car boot lies my first aid kit, whenever i need it, whoever who needs it.
(well of course, i wouldn't my first aid knowledge to go to waste, would i?)
and i stop by châteaux.
offering to buy fine wine from the great owners themselves. face to face.
perhaps having an invite over for dinner and a stay overnight?
to sleep in the great man's luxurious guest room?
and out of the window, the mountains stand from the distance.

bliss. perfect.

oh brian, i'm such a dreamer :P
today?

went to the bus stop,
took the usual bus to sch.
and as it rained in the middle of the ride.
i hummed a song about it. hee...

walked to sch.
to class.

chiong some geo stuff.

sch started with the National Anthem.
i've realised that if u think the NA is a long and dull song.
it's length of 1 1/2 min would drag a wee bit.
and the only way to get over with it quick.
is to somewhat enjoy it.
:p

chuanzhi broke mrs wong's record.
or so that's what i think i seen.
stack cups, stack cups.

history.
ms ong is a kind teacher,
she even offered to print class notes.
i mean, mr lee didn't do such stuff.
previously we just slack the lesson off.
at least ms ong had something going on.

english.
sick essays.
out of Fakhruz, Brandon and Kelvin.
who's the better comedian.
Fakhruz, ooh.
well surprising because kelvin was like the inspiration guy for Fakhruz.
(fyi, i dun rly know how spell F... name correct)

geo was also ok.
ms cheng and her usual lesson.
and since when did people call me Neil O.o

pe was ok.
set the ball.
watch some vid.

reccess, zx and sydney and cs. zak helm.
and i lent 15 oil control papers -.-

science lesson was interesting? not.
i mean, so what i learn all this stuff.
i mean, i'm not so excited as the others.
i don't fidget around my chair and say
'ooh oh! ya, hey... yadayada *insert whatever crap stuff here*'
ok, maybe i DO react like that.
but seriously, i won't overdo it.

but as i looked around the class,
most of the girls were dreading this class.
like they were gonna die or something.
while the boys were blabbering about questions to ask.

contrast to the commotion made during the male reproductive system.
the whole class fell quiet when it came to the female.
i mean, everyone's enthu gone after the break.

then math.
mr soo was ok.
i mean, wtf?
ok???
well, other than asking 'Shuddup'
in the first period.
he became slightly cheerful soon.
tore my 7.3
and had to REDO.
it's just a tear?@?!

lol.
ok.
math project after-brief.

then go home.
but before that,
went to northpoint,
go top up card $5
and wanted to eat subway.
but no solo seats.
D:
no eating fresh for me today.

so, i went kathib market.
buy packet chicken rice + chicken + rice.
and milk tea :D

went home eat.
end of day.

and i've been using my new organiser with a more organised way to put my quotes.
:D

2009-07-12T06:24:00.000-07:00

listened to techno in the morning.
woohoo.
ate breakfast.
went to church.
i have to say, none of my shirts match my light jeans,
i rather wear the darker one.
took the bus to church.
mass.
catechism about vocation.
went to northpoint.
ate at kfc.
long time no bandito pockett,
yay. om nom nom nom.
then go library.
borrow roald dahl.
then go popular, buy new organiser.
the previous one took 1/2 a year to fill with crap.
then go watsons, buy the oil control paper for my face.
then went home.
do homec
do roald dahl.
then do geo.
facebook'd
mafia wars. MASTER UNDERBOSS
then maple. LVL'D to 44
um not really so happy.
._.
but still hey.
fakhruz gonna return to school,
yea.
and tay min still got 1 wk to go! lol.

so..
i wanna watch HPATHBP!

2009-07-11T07:48:00.001-07:00

no mood to update recently.
finally had the math holiday assignment over with alrdy.
finally back to normal math lessons, i hope.

really messed up.
i don't know what going on.
i've lost track of my emotions.

oh god brian,
i'm not emo.

ndp rehearsals.
zzz.

sigh,
lemme whistle my life away...
whistle, whistle.

hold a knife and stab people in the back.

lalalal...

so bored, i knew it.
i shouldn't post at all.

2009-07-06T07:02:00.001-07:00

EPILOUGE

and i look on at the week forward.
i see assignments and projects, due due due.
presentations to show.
questions to answer.

and the stuff keeps on coming eh?

i'm bored.
i've lost my aim in life.
look at me in the first half of the year,
this boy who knew what he wanted,
who's got everyday to look forward to it.
every thought; philosophy for it.
every smile, frown, laugh or tear about it.
i've got every reason to live my life!

but at the middle of the year, i was to be left at scratch again...

now, i need something.
an inner drive for life.
something that would spark my mind;
a flash in my eyes.

i need a new light.
the previous candle doesn't shine as bright anymore.

2009-07-06T06:42:00.000-07:00

ok, monday blues kicked in.
and from this day onwards.
i don't wanna lend my work anymore.
i'm pissed trying to keep track of ppl holding on to my work.
pissed trying to get it back when i want it to.

i lost my mood to face the world.

i want to run away from the responsibilities of life.

2009-07-05T07:18:00.000-07:00

today i went to church with the family.

wore my favourite polo,
my favourite jeans,
my converse sneakers and bag.

the sneakers were tight. wth.

put the sci book in my bag.
cos i have proj after church.

church.
homily about prejudice.

cathechism
knowing each other more. etc etc.

i feel like trying out sudden attack.
maybe be pro at it.
so i can stfu all the ppl saying combat arms suck.

jkjk

after that, went kfc takeaway,
aw man, no bandito there.

actually wanted to subway today.
but had to go kel hse do sci proj.

do proj.
do do.
do finish.
i try out the private server.
quite cool.

hm
then went home.

tmrw youth day, so i should finish my lit tmrw, and some of my math qns.

2009-07-03T05:52:00.000-07:00

ok, i feel miserable sometimes in school nowadays.
what have i become?
once i was a sec 1 boy who enjoyed lessons,
now i'm a sec 2 boy who can't stand some stuff.

anyway, here's the post for the 3 days.
~

my table seating was okok i guess.
hui ying's a neighbour whose okok i guess.
and i've got zhan xing across the gap.
and behind fakhruz
and infront tian jie.

history was ok. new teacher.
miss ong.
i commented that she speaks kinda loud.
well, got used to it on the 2nd lesson.
surprisingly didn't care about knowing our names.
teaches waaay better than mr lee

english was ok. do worksheets.
miss zuraida.
no comments, she's alright.
punctuation worksheets.
MJ's pasing.
discuss stuff.

oh and yes,
my walkathon card was pathetic.
D;
$11

geo.
miss cheng was absent.
oh well.
relief teacher and we talk about Peter Chao yeah.
spread da word.

pe was volleyball.
spread da peter chao to mr cheak.
volley the ball.
pass pass...
we got our ball in the fence.
thanks to ash, we got it back.
and one of the guys got their ball
on the tree.
ooh yea, pe lesson for today,
[get a ball down from a tree.]

science was ok...
do wkbk wif hy.
she's faster than me, wtf.
hm...

emath was ok too.

skip skip.

do hmwk in afternoon wif the guys.

thurs,
lit lesson.

mdm kaur.
srsly, i cannot tahan her lesson, or to be more precise,
her teaching style.
but i've got to get used to it.
yes, neatness's part of CA.
pronounced paris wrongly.
the guys comment on my legs.
fk.

sigh, bored already.

for the guiltiest of people: the word 'sorry' loses it's worth and meaning by the next apology

2009-07-03T04:04:00.000-07:00

sigh...
i feel disappointed of myself.
yet i feel i shall have my own choice.
yet i feel guilt.
yet i feel it doesn't matter.
nothing mattered.

i left my previous self behind.
and it asks "why?"

i ask him "how?"

2009-06-30T06:29:00.000-07:00

today was boring i must say.
and i bet tomorrow could bore me.

2nd day of semester 2.

bus-ed to school.
same old same old ride.
mumbled, or more of talk to myself in my mind.

really boring.
stared out of the bus window,
still having my holiday mode in me.
kick it kick it out, c'mon...

went to school.

music was ok, lol.
learnt the chords just before lesson.

math was alright.
other than having my work grabbed.
i forgot to bring my report, heng...
tmrw hand in.

mother tongue, my accent sucks, lol.
worse than foreigner :P
at least i understood the story.
wooh.
and got some class interaction by zhong.
ask qn here ask qn there.

pe was height and weight.
crap.
172cm ???
oh well.
i think i'm stuck.
puberty over i think.
D:

must think positive.
i will be tall,
oh yea.
i am.
it's just that i wonder whether i will be tall-er.

hm, recess, rant about maple.
zzz.
i dun wanna play that.
but the guys keep talking about it.
peer pressure....curse peer pressure...

hm, what was next.
oh yes.
english, 2 periods.
did the worksheets.
while the sj people xinpeng and michael, and oh yes. weeseng. and yes yes, zah.
all of them.
all of them.
got a hell lot of donations.
leaving me helpless.
i'm not desperate,
helpless.
haha.

science was ok.
grouping was alright.
blah blah. etc etc.
last thing was the reflections.
nonsense i must say.
i have to.

"philosophy made us illusions to the rigid rules of reality"
oh well,
maybe their's wasn't philosophy, it's a real life lesson; advice.
but do we truly need it?

went back home.
didn't want to eat out with the guys.
no mood.
sigh...
~

there's really nothing much to look forward to every morning.
i've yet to have a new chapter in my life.
i know i've ended the previous chapter.
it is and i know it is.
a slight epilouge.
but it doesn't matter right?
nothing matters.
i don't know...now what?

2009-06-29T03:22:00.000-07:00

ugh, utterly no mood to blog.
but, argh..
i feel so bored.
~
i couldn't sleep well last night.
when i lay down on bed at 10pm, i slept at 12.30am
D:

today was 1st day of sch, sem 1.
waited for 812,
which was kinda weird.
cos i could have sworn it came very late.
took the bus.
walked to sch.
sch got something like a gateway,
flu or no flu,
travel or no travel.
book shop was renovated.
go class.
they paint the room green and white.
lol, that means effort wasted, but perhaps was worth it.
some ppl say i look like victor from the back.
zzz.
take temp.
woohoo, today got no math.
mrs wong was ranting about h1n1.
then chinese.
mdm zhong ask us do journal.
i write about last night can't sleep :p
ecology, yawn.
damn quiet sia.
oh yea, sitting arrangement was set.
sit beside hui ying.
and oh ya...
chong soon was sent back home :p
poor guys, but he chiong maple! ><
geo, ms cheng nvr come.
oh well.
do chi journal.
lit lesson, mdm kaur.
i feel utterly insecure, since she claims that she understands all our body languages.
well, i'm gonna try being indifferent, take that!
mr soo came in once.
talk talk about tmrw's lesson.
oh well, gotta make the 3rd draft model
CE lesson was...ok i guess.
some vid and story about a guy.
same old same old story.
strong willed, determined, supportive family, happy outcome.

i cannot relate with it, c'mon i'm abled.
and what is there to be so strong-willed as he is?
he is right to say that you must accept what life gives,
and in his case, he's not able to try to change.
but in mine, i'm perfectly normal, and i can change.
i just needa know how.

yadayada.
etc etc.

after sch,
go cs house to update him stuff.
first thing me and kel saw,
him playing com.
O.o

bus-ed back
800 to np.
popular go buy paper for pyramid.
811 to home.

oh well, off to do work.
tally ho!

2009-06-26T21:20:00.000-07:00

what is with all the weird dreams.
they are completely unrelated with my life.

so, i woke up.
10.58am on my watch (which is 18 min faster)
dragged myself to the kitchen.
at it rained.
the morning so frickin dull.

try to recall any dreams i had.
~

here's a super random short scene.

"hey brian, take your height"
*take height*
"you're 153 cm!"
*wtf...*

wake up.

zzz o.o

2009-06-26T06:42:00.001-07:00

"Letting go is not hard. It's just that you're grabbing on too tight, to something you think you want but isn't there anymore. It's only until when you've realised it truly is, then you let go. And turns out you've been holding on to nothing. Now you've freed yourself, laugh it all off. :D"

2009-06-25T21:23:00.000-07:00

last night i was doing my homework.
i was sick of doing the questions.
and i took my psp, and played music.

and
i danced in my bedroom to the beat of Aerodynamite.

breakdance, robot. yadayada, whatever.

o.o , betcha' never see me dance. hah!
~

here comes more dreams.
utterly weird.
ok.

(note: i shall not say the people's name in the dream. cos, hey.)

there i was, sitting in the classroom.
the seating arrangement was all the tables were at the walls of the classroom, like a square.
and i sat beside a boy.
by the left of my sight of me was another boy.
then there was the teacher.

she went like
"class, how's your holidays?"

then one girl said
"stupid lor, brian owes me $8."

then i said in a sarcastic accent
"oh, i owe you eight dollar, blah... blah..."

then the boy on my right was like
"brian! why you so bad."
i ignored him.

then i looked at the boy on my front left,
then he sniggered and i laughed too.

then then.

i woke up.

2009-06-25T01:17:00.000-07:00

what the hell what the hell what the hell.

i opened the fridge and found out the 2nd bottle of sparkling grapejuice was empty.
bloody empty.
no no, it's not half empty or half full.
IT'S ze bloody empty.

haha jkjk.

but seriously.
the ice-lemon tea bottle was empty too.

so, i found a wine glass on the dining table.
clear liquid with some bubble.
ooh, gotta try that.
BLEH ><
i drank a mouthful of vinegar.

i still have the stinging sensation in my mouth.
i can feel it, it burns....
even if i rinse my mouth with hell lot of water.
IT BURNS!!!

ok.
[memo to self: taste the an unknown drink with your tongue first before anything else.]

2009-06-24T21:54:00.000-07:00

ugh. bleh.
i had an awfully weird and boring dream.

i was walking down the void deck in some blocks, seeing some group of schoolmates.
then they all glare at me. like i did something wrong o.o
then i just snigger away.
then WOOSH!
there i was, in my flat corridor.
downstairs in the void deck, there was a STAR WARS concert. wth?
and then the same group of schoolmates were beside me. omgwoah...
and they glare some more.
glare and GLARE
i went back inside my house.
then i take lightsaber.
chop of their head.
but then their head glare glare some more.
wth lah.
then the Darth Vader theme played.
then i was breathing like Darth Vader. hahaha!

then then then...
THEN!

i jumped of the flat.

and
i woke up.

~
totally unrelated.
crap. what does my dream mean???

2009-06-24T05:22:00.000-07:00

ok, i hid all my posts away.
html comments.
but still, if anyone tries grabbing my code.
let them, whatever.
it's pointless.

throw away the past behind.

after yesterday.
i realised that all along i had already forgotten you.
it's just that i made myself think i still did.
that all i remember now is just nothing much.

it turned out to my problem.
my fault.

but, that's the past.
and i fare thee well.

...
now on to my post.
~

ok.
went to do homework with the guys.
and as expected, we didn't.
and we played:

NERF

woohoo, haha.

we had a new map.
which was the void deck of chongsoon's house.
and it was waaay better than any other place we've been playing in.

//TATICS//

territorial power:
some silly wankers could camp in the staircase and shoot thru the windows
but is vunerable from low ammunition and close combat from behind

stealth:
some sly fellas could run or sneak thru the dark corridors and pillars or the sides alleys to backstab the enimies.
but is vunerable from being engaged with more enemies than what can be handled.

strategic:
two people. first person distracts enemies to own territory, retreats, where the second guy can ambush.
but is venerable from loophole in strategy and be attacked from blind spot

raw power:
very simple and basic. engage enemy in combat, face to face with little or no cover.
or surround enemy.

//end//

but too bad.
i didn't finish my math.

2009-06-23T03:24:00.000-07:00

you asked me to forget.
i've completely forgotten my care for you.
~

and yes, yes.
bye bye.
and say hello to everything else.

2009-06-22T20:14:00.000-07:00

ok, this totally sucks.
6 days left.
actually, i have only 4.
because saturday i have sjab agi goh rehearsal.
sunday have church.
and i can't be able to see myself actually doing homework on those days.

if i think it this way,
some people are called to do some particular stuff.
some are called to singma.
my call is the agi goh,
not forgetting to mention the others who are also in.

so
today is homework day.
i'll start with english summary.
then literature qns.
then math.
then soon i'll do my portion of geo proj.

2009-06-22T06:40:00.000-07:00

2009-06-22T05:59:00.000-07:00

2009-06-21T07:40:00.001-07:00

2009-06-20T22:11:00.000-07:00

well, i'm at the library.
and i brought my psp.
which can't use wi-fi because i didn't sign up for wireless@sg.
and my psp bat is left with it's last bar.
today is sinma comp.
at xinmin sec.
sadly, i went to church, so i couldn't see the action.
but since when was there any?

i can't find a book i wanna borrow.
too bad.

just recently i went to watsons to buy my deodarant.
ooh, Nivea for men.
i didn't choose Addidas,
i'm not so athletic :P

well, last week of school holidays.
lo and behold.
time has flown fast.

7 mins for my com usage.

bleh, i rather go back home and play com.

hm...

2009-06-20T05:01:00.000-07:00

ok, i feel like putting my blog songs as French House.
Thomas Bangalter?
haha, u've never heard of him.

anyway, ate butter bread with my brother for snack, he prepared the bread and butter...
and me as the older brother.... I simply prepared the drinks :P.
lazy much?
no.
because i finished chap 3!
minus some qns which i never think i learnt.

woohoo, i think i can actually finish math by the end of this holiday.

2009-06-19T20:42:00.000-07:00

as i lay in bed last night, past midnight:
i laugh at the my previous self in love,
because there's no point having that self back,
because that self would turn into what i am now.

and of course i don't want anything to happen again.

2009-06-19T20:30:00.000-07:00

[9 days left]
~

~
finished chap 3 qn 10.
but fk that.
i still have projects to finish up.

yawn.

2009-06-18T20:32:00.001-07:00

kinda screwed up.
the holidays are screwed up.
and as i lay down on my bed past midnight,
staring at the ceiling.
i knew that today was over, and tomorrow would come.
and tomorrow would be today. that today is screwed up.

{10 days to school]
bleh.

this is stupid.
how many student do you think would have done the math homework?
when i can hear from my friends that people have been playing the days away.

yadyada.
i laugh at the success of privacy.
google? no.
RSS? no.
grab source code? no.
get invited? no, i was excluded.

oh what the heck, never mind.

i think i'll be off to do my homework.
plan to finish chap 3 today.
screwed all the assholes who ask me not to.
screw time that which i lose.

2009-06-18T08:12:00.000-07:00

2009-06-18T04:52:00.001-07:00

2009-06-17T06:25:00.000-07:00

//contradiction;clash with quote
"i must face the harsh truth of reality which philosophy only made us show ignorance"

2009-06-17T06:13:00.000-07:00

2009-06-17T06:06:00.001-07:00

2009-06-17T05:41:00.000-07:00

2009-06-16T23:14:00.001-07:00

my hair
D:

2009-06-16T08:35:00.000-07:00

here is a boy, who sits in front of the computer screen.
the lights are out.
the computer table is dim lit only by the screen itself.

clicks the link second to the last of the list

[Wednesday, May 27, 2009; 5/27/2009 09:18:00 PM]

[Thursday, May 28, 2009; 5/28/2009 06:24:00 PM]

the reminiscence.
he still remembers; still remembers sadly...
not knowing whether he even should.
but it feels so bitter sweet...

but he doesn't give damn, yes?
he should care, no?
because a goodbye is a goodbye.

but he still remembers.

2009-06-16T02:14:00.001-07:00

this is unfortunate.
i'm out of correction tape, my calculator battery is getting low and i'm going to need some foolscap paper.
well, that totally put a halt in my math homework.
sucks alot.

perhaps i'll go out now to the bookstore and buy...

2009-06-15T22:58:00.000-07:00

an average/casual techno listener think its a waste of time in their life hearing a track with the same beat all over again and again.
but the real techno listener would be willing to put their time into understanding the song, its gradual change within the beat, and exclaims it indeed a masterpiece.

most of the music in the radio, mtv, tv, Top 10 hits or whatever is called Mainstream.
is where majority of the world is too lazy to find the music they want and just simply accept Mainstream as excellent. Because most of society says so too.
Mainstream music give everyone understanding and meaning immediately in just one listen without putting much thought.

techno has its meaning embedded deep down in it tunes.
and different meanings come out by every change.
but it's the listeners responsibility to infer the meaning.
sadly, some it would take 10000 times of listening just to appreciate it for any other average listener.

techno says every meaning you want to hear if you make yourself want to hear it.
that's amazing.

2009-06-15T08:08:00.000-07:00

i've made this song,
month before.
though i've never completed the lyrics...
~

do you think i give a damn.
about your love life.
do you think i care.

of all the boys you talk with.
the girls you gossip with...

your beautiful glare
your hypnotic stare

oh i don't give a damn
about your love life
shall it end.
oh i don't even care
oh i don't give a damn, no.

but i'll go through
mountain, sea and sky.
to say goodbye goodbye.

but as i leave i cry.
with tears upon my stride.
because i know i've left you
right just now.

but i don't give a damn.
oh i don't even care.
i'll just walk away,
leaving you right there.

perhaps i will smile?
time shall heal the wound
soon i sigh.
soon i sigh...

...
...
...

2009-06-15T08:01:00.000-07:00

there's a coward voice.
cowering and insisting,
"it's not my fault"
scared at your sadness.
afraid to help, might it be worse.
screamed at and jeered.

but truly, it is sorry.
it's just...

2009-06-15T01:29:00.001-07:00

for once, i'll laugh at the sadness.
your sadness.
my sadness.

because sadness is stupidity.

this is absurd, all so funny... haha.

2009-06-14T20:45:00.000-07:00

I never cried for a long time, and to be honest, I never really cried when I said I did.
I never wanted when I should.
But now I wish I could, because crying is a wonderful feeling; proper for the sadness I now carry deep down.
I welled up all tears, and felt utterly bitter.
I want to let go of them.
I tried, truly I tried, but no tear flowed.

If I cried, perhaps happiness would follow suit.

"You can doubt my words I've said,
doubt my feelings,
doubt my honesty,
doubt my regret,
doubt my sadness.
But never doubt I once loved."

2009-06-14T06:48:00.000-07:00

ok, my holidays are officially robbed from 2 weeks.
should i call the police or something...

anyway, just finished till qn 7 of chap 2 of the math workbook.
considering the many parts per qn, i did quite a hell lot of sums.
bleh.
still have projects to finish...
2 weeks left.

in my spare time, which is extremely rare.
i try to recall the past.
perhaps 2 weeks ago.
sadly, the end of it.
the start of another.

2009-06-12T19:54:00.000-07:00

what is techno?

techno is the music with the beats.
the music with the tune.
the music which is the flow.

it puts the bounce to the ounce
it makes your feel harder, better, faster, strong.
it's Da Soul, it Da Funk.

so what's if it is not music.
it's sound!
sound can be noise or voices.
and yes!
you can appreciate the noise to.
if you can stay in the city with the noise.
listen to the noise manipulated;
tweaked and twisted to harass your ears.
or listen to the beats and the flow.
feel trippy and high.
jump to the beat,
move your body with the flow.

oh, while you people listen to mainstream music;
pop, rock, bleh. whatever.
i listen to sidestream.
i don't follow society.
screw society.
why should i? why should we?
if some societies could screw up into war, hate.
would ours too?
yeah yeah, whatever.
pop's nice, rock's nice.
but i search for my own music.
i don't look up to the internet and see
the Top 10 hits.

lyrics? lyrics? bleh.
if you think lyrics are all so meaningful.
with the vocals and everything.
we should as well sing our lives along.
who knows, maybe we 'love' each other songs we talk
and be each another fans???
bleh.
heehee.

i'm changing my blog song to DJ techno
subgenre: Techno Dance

2009-06-11T08:22:00.001-07:00

tragedy is reality.

We all may want the truth, but sometimes we hate to face it.
And so we love fantasising; creating lies and illusions of a world we want.
Away from reality we quite hate to face.

2009-06-11T07:54:00.000-07:00

ok...
i went to henderson waves yesterday.
the family walked thru mt faber.
so, here's some pics.

2009-06-10T20:02:00.000-07:00

my mind's been tossing and turning in bed last night.
struggling at the fact that i'm losing time.
i've 17 days left of the holidays.
and i've my math and projects to do.

every hour of every day could be wasted.
just using the computer,
going to singma,
going out of the house.

when i could have done my hmwk.

17 days is a few...

this holiday isn't a holiday at all...

2009-06-09T19:56:00.000-07:00

i did some random quotes yesterday.

"Do you ever have a feeling you've been walking through some path again, again and again?
Knowing that you've been walking through it again, again and again; that it's too much.
Yet walk again, again and again.
Not because you want to, but because you have to"

2009-06-09T00:50:00.001-07:00

after playing Gang Garrison 2.
i suppose that this generation of gamers
has too much of 3D games already.
give them a pixel-style game, with 8 bit music.
they think or say it sucks.
sadly, i wonder if they completely forget that
we play games for the gameplay,
not just realism.
or perhaps realism is part of gameplay.
...
just wonder.

i'm off to singma.
will be back home late. -.-

2009-06-08T19:43:00.000-07:00

ok...
i/c for today's trip to HQ for singma casualty.
argh,
can only find 4 ppl. (including me)
now what?
4.20pm should be enuff to reach HQ by 6pm, i hope.
i don't want mrs lim screaming yadayada
at my face.
oh c'mon. i tried my best already.

2009-06-07T02:24:00.000-07:00

simple summary of today.

went to church
ate lunch at northpoint
went to causeway point with my family.
played a demo of FEAR 2, omfg nice
bought Test Drive Unlimited for PSP
bought me brown sneakers
ate mos cheeseburger

now off to play Gang Garrison 2!
and TDU is cool.

2009-06-06T02:01:00.000-07:00

sinmal casualty, once more.
3rd time -.-

i was at yishun mrt station ealiest.
and it sucks to be early.
becos you need to wait for the other ppl.
god, who also knows that.

at around 7.50
most came.
called quan en, ws and micheal.

quan en and micheal no response.
but we didn't do cpr.
(pardon the lame joke)
wee seng
"uh, i a bit busy today"
zzz

3 out.
let's go.

went the usual train with timothy, zoey and thian soon.
we assumed xinpeng, bernice, tarilyn went to hq themselves.
lol, they were left behind late.
met up we them at lavender station.

walked the usual walk to hq.
like i said in the last sinmal post.
i was getting pissed by going thru this route.
today.
i lightened myself a bit by looking at the insignificance of things.
i got myself interested in the simplest of surroundings.
numbers, license plates, signs, shops.
even the way the light shone on stuff.

reached hq,
blah blah
yadayada
mrs lim was talking.
and scolding.
about the ambulances' hair.
in the end, they gel'd they're hair side parting.
O.O
haha!

cough
G.I. haircut
cough ><

and when everyone left the room
the prof came.
yet to know his name o.O
we met a new casualty.
from NUS high school
omg.
he was from china.
over-aged student.
15 years old, sec 1.
meddled with his portable tv.
while we played some games,
they played some games.
and we played with a dust ball and a wooden twig.
omg, so childiish.
hahah.
like those kampung kids.
*play with wood twig*

casualty for long case.
spinal for the 3rd time.
i alwats kena spinal injury.
why?
every case they slot me in those cervical collar.
yet they never adjust it.
i could turn my neck left and right.

yawn
time flew by again.
they let us go early
at 1pm instead of 3pm.
the ppl stayed
and then i walked out
i don't want to wait for whoever and whatever.

walked to lavender.
thinking of where to eat lunch.
at a snack meal at mr bean.
met up with timothy again.
dunno why he also went off early.
took
EW line to city hall.
NS line to dobhy gauht
NE line to serangoon
C line to bishan (yes, i wanted to try ride on the circle line)
NS line to kathib.
bought packet chicken rice back home.

the end.
that was my day.
kinda boring.
~

quoted from Franz Ferdinand - You're The Reason I'm Leaving

"You're the reason I'm leavin
If I'm leaving we don't stop livin, you know"

"Singin' well, fare thee well, fare thee well, fare thee well
I am leaving, yes I leave it all to you..."

"And here I am fighting, fighting
Yes I'm fighting not to cry
and that's another reason why
I ought to hate you like I do"

2009-06-05T06:04:00.000-07:00

today was
class outing

went to yishun mrt.
first to arrive.
so i waited and waited for the guys and girls to come.

wore my white polo tee i wore during a funeral last year.
not that it mattered anyway -.-

brought my nerf.
though i wasn't even gonna play it.
and i didn't for the day.
not that it too mattered anyway ._.

21 ppl came.
hoorah :O

ok, fast forward to the vivocity part.

>> >>

vivocity at 11.30am

decided to go to Toys r Us with the guys
woah, ok.
limited edition clear maverick.

dickson with his cash,
wants to buy $.$

>> >>

//command.simplify?=summarize

sentosa
beach
hot sand
volleyball
water
fun
photo
wet
jj lost specs D:
veryveryvery fun!

//end

wooh.

anyway, ash paiseh sia.
he kena pull down shorts in the sentosa express.
><

back at vivo.
went to burger kind with kelvin and dickson.
i ordered bk fish.
it sucked :X
the filet was burnt.
bleh.
but i ate and swallowed the burger up, of course with some chewing and biting :D

toys r us
dickson bought his clear maverick

then mrt-ed back home with the 2 guys
met up with the class again at dobhy gauht
they're gonna watch some movie in yishun
i no mood.
tired lah.
i would have slept in the cinema zzz=.=

alighted at kathib.
i dun wanna waste cents in 811.

went home.
showered.

heard techno song
benny benassi - rock and rave.

wooh o.o

and anyway, i hope you noticed the achievements.
you deserve this.