my words have gone bland and tasteless.

i want to end it all.
i've got this final letter...
but time made its meaning void and meaningless.
there's no point already.
i feel like walking away.

you...i could have sworn... you... avoided me...

i thought i want this over already
it's my fckin fault.
dammit
i was so stubborn.
i should have listened to you.
i should have ended this long ago already.
but

i don't know what i want anymore.
i don't know what is there that i want.

i don't care what people see in this post.
there isn't much of them seeing.
there isn't much who could help...
they don't understand me.
i don't understand me.
i don't understand

do you?
noone will.

my mind has voices that scream and shout.
they push me around.
i left without a good bye.
i don't know
i don't know.

this situation is bitter chocolate.
i cringe at what i see.
but i swallow it in disgust
it's not your fault.
i've no idea what is.
but i feel like putting the blame on you honestly.
i can't
i should never.

why...

time seemed like it could just solve everything.
that's just being lazy.
but for once.
i feel like to.




i toss and turn in bed.
i feel bitterness in my tastebuds.
i point my gun at the class photo.
i shot the heart.
i don't know what to react.
i can't tear.
i can't scream
i can't smile.

i just feel bitter...