"give up..."

love's a gamble.
you gamble your life for her love.
you'll lose it all when she's gone.
you'll have nothing left...
~

i really don't know why
that victor calls me blur.
zzz,
i'm not pissed off.
it's just that i find it stupid to call me blur.

seriously, if i'm blur.
i would have noticed that already.
and what the heck,
just because i fell the damn fall
at the 1st day doesn't mean
that it will leave me blur forever.

sigh.
wish he knew that...
~

i gambled my time for nothing.
i'm glad it's only my time...
~

screwed the heck up in footdrill.
stupid hand, go straight...
sigh...
i still have to handle chinese.
0le2 coming up...
end of the term coming up,
end of the yr's coming up...
to me.
~

"i give up..."
~and you suppose you're going to stay like that~
"i give up...and i let go"
~and u suppose it'll be easy~
"everything's easy"
~then why did you give up~
"because what i tried wasn't worth it"
~try what~
"try love"
~love, u suppose that what you 'love' was love?~
"perhaps i was blind. i couldn't tell..."
~no, love's blind~
"love's in me, blinds me"
~and so you give up~
"thus love leaves me"
~and so goes the blindness too~
"and so too..."
~and then what?~
"then i see true love"
~you couldn't tell love from 'love'. and you can't now...~
"and i give up?"
~give up...that's what you say. and?"
"just...give up"
~and...let go~
"it's all very easy..."
~you suppose~
"i suppose, but i know, i'm gonna try"
~try blindly~
"try luck"
~luck is blind too~
"luck and love, both are a gamble"
~and you'll lose it all?~
"yes"
~and it'll all be very easy~
"easy come, easy go..."
~and when all is gone~
"give up"
~and let go~